Thursday, July 2, 2009

Confessions of an Ambivalent Heart

I always have mixed feelings whenever I am travelling back home especially when I am retuning back home during the academic semester.
Some part of me will be super excited to return home after living in the hellish Cendana or Shah Alam for that matter. Some part of me will be relieved because I can go back to a place where I can relax, rest and regenerate after studying day and night at the Cendana or INTEC. But then again, some part of me will be worried whether if I am able to accomplished what I set out to do during my time back home.
Everytime I return home, there will one gargantuan distractor waiting for me : My Computer.

The problem is not My Computer per se, but rather what is holds or contains. Because of the poweful processor, vast capacity of memory and high graphic capailites, I find myslef being able to play all the latest games.

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These are all the games in My Computer. Yeah, I know it ain't THAT much but the duration of each game for total completion is gargantuan that it takes me ages to go through each level.
As a die hard shooter fan, I have completed most of my shooter games such as Call of Duty 4 : Modern Warfare, Call of Duty 5 : World at War and Medal of Honour : Airbourne. Currently, I'm playing Crysis and its sequel, Crysis Warhead. 2 great games! At the same time, I'm racing cars in Race Driver : GRiD, being a spy in No One Lives for Ever 2, assasinating higher ups in Assassin's Creed and shooting lightning underwater in Bioshock.
For me, doing all of that is tiring. Even so, I tend to stay up waaaaaaay late in to the wee hours of the morning just so I can get that trophy or kill that damn korean soldier or even assasinate an innocent civilian. Ahh.. what fun!

As a result of all these awesome games, I am so preoccupied that I do not accomplished any of the goals that I set out to do. For example, for the holiday that I'm currently having, I said to myself that I will learn the fundamentals of C++ , learn more about video editting and also edit my enginnering video, start reading chapter for Calculus 3 and a few other objectives.

However, the only objective I've started is C++. All the rest are still stuck, hanging and "collecting dust"

I'm kinda in a dilemma. Should I like lock up my computer for awhile and focus on some other tasks or just keep on playing the games till the sun rises?

Irronically, while battling with myself with this dilemma, I'm currently downloading more games. Sigh..- wait, did I say downloading..no, no.. what I meant what buying, yes buying, I'm currently buying more games to play. Sigh...

Well, I guess that's all folks. I supposed I'll play Defense of the Ancient or more commonly knowns as DotA to you all dotards. Arrgh.. I guess I'll be seeing the sun rise this morning again.

Good night morning, folks!



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